Thursday, May 19, 2011

Why is it that Tumblr always manage to turn my thoughts into perfect sentences? How awesome is that?

Monday, May 9, 2011

Live. Kiss. Love. Roll.

First of all, let me clarify that this is totally absolutely unintentional. Seriously.

I was getting bored with my same old same old playlist so I started Google-ing for new songs. Well, not literally new, actually. I Googled "top 80's songs" and I've found several lists with songs that are actually familiar to me. Can't believe that I have an old soul. That doesn't even count when I started to sing along with Dad to the Oldies. Gosh. Okay. So I started downloading a few hits back then and this is my latest playlist :

1. Bon Jovi - Living On A Prayer

This song is about a boy and a girl and their tough lives. The girl insists on holding on to what they already have and make the best of it, for the sake of love. Nothing else matters as long as they have each other. However at one point, when the girl is on the verge of giving up and decides to run away, the boy whispers to her, "Baby it's okay, someday".

Oh, we're half way there
Oh oh, livin' on a prayer
Take my hand, we'll make it I swear
Oh oh, livin' on a prayer"

2. Kiss The Rain - Billie Myers

First of all, oh my gosh the person who sings this song is a she!
Okay so the song revolves around a boy and a girl who are having a long distance relationship, I suppose. The girl misses the boy and so she calls him up but I guess the boy has changed somehow because the girl is kinda paranoid about hearing a voice of someone else across the line. She also says that the boy sounds different and he doesn't seem to miss her the way she does.

"Keep in mind,
we're under the same sky.
And the nights
as empty for me as for you"

3. Def Leppard - When Love and Hate Collide

This song is about a conflict that this couple is having. This time, it is the girl who seems to change over time. They are arguing all the time, slamming down the phones, but in the end, they don't even know what they are fighting about. The boy is sick of treating each other like it's a war and he still loves the girl and he is making an effort to make everything okay like how they used to be.

"Got the time got a chance gonna make it
Got my hands on your heart gonna take it
All I know I can't fight this flame
You could have a change of heart, if you would only change your mind
Cause I'm crazy 'bout you baby, time after time"

4. Adele - Rolling In The Deep

This last song in my playlist is a new song, certainly not from the 80's. This song tells a story about this girl who has just broken up with a boy and how "..the scars of your love remind me of us.." and how "..they keep me thinking that we almost had it all..". It is not that she still wants him back, but she couldn't help thinking about the things that they could have had if they stayed together in the first place.

"We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
Rolling in the deep,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
You had my heart inside of your hand,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
And you played it to the beat,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)"

How come my playlist tells a complete love story from when boy meets girl, falls in love, swears to each other that they'll make it through anything, and eventually one of them starts to change and in the end no one seems to see eye to eye anymore and finally break up? What the hell?

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Just breathe.

Who says you gotta take a deep breath and let it out slowly when you're having panic attacks? Well they don't work in the real world, at least not for me. Especially those panic attacks that you have when entering the examination hall. It's like, I can literally hear my heart thumping in this ribcage, wanting to be set free, wanting to die. Sitting for the paper this morning got me thinking hard,

What else can I do with this life?

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

running wild

According to my Introduction to Management notes, one of the ways to overcome effective communication barriers is to;

Constraint Emotions
-Recognize when your emotions are running high. When they are, don't communicate until you have calmed down.

Ain't it obvious?

Somehow I love reading the random broken English that I used regularly or the grammatical errors that I made or the trying-too-hard-to-make-long-and-beautiful sentences.
Gosh it's almost been three years and I still can't find my passion in engineering.
Okay I'm rambling. This doesn't have anything to do with the communication and emotions thingy.
Okay back to screen-capturing the notes with my head.
Okay, fine. Maybe some sleep.
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