pompuan..pompuan,,

yesterday it rained so heavily, it was a bliss to sleep,
but somehow, i couldn't sleep..darn..
so i spent all day watching am america's next top model and american idol marathon.
most of the models and contestants are 18 and 19 years old.. then i finally realized (silly me), i'm already 19, man.. one more year and i'll be 20.. 2 decades.. what have i done in this 19 years of life?? feels like it was only yesterday that i was jumping here and there playing lubang tikus, tiang and bla3.. tho i don't really have many friends when i was a kid, coz the place that i live in, is full of the elders. :(
eniwei, back to my dilemma.. i'm already 19!!
mommy kept on repeating "dah 19 tahun dah..dah bley kawen dah".. huh..in my dreams.
mommy said, i should start acting like an adult.
guys, do i act like a non-adult????

i've determined.
since i'm now 19, i want to be more feminine.hahahahaha.. so i bought new shoes, heels, more like wedges, as belle told me.

(sesiapa pun tidak dibenarkan membeli kasut yang sama. aku dah serik pakai baju kurung yang sama dengan orang)
i wore it for a day, and my feet have blisters and it's painful! when i woke up the next morning, my feet was aching as if i forgot to warm up before a marathon the day before. hurmm... susahnya jadi pompuan.
pakai heels pun still nampak pendek gak..huh..benci!

so now, i'm back to wearing sneakers. much much comfy! i lyke! =)
xyah gambaq ar..buruk dah kasut aku..
oh kena shopping lagi!
yay!

it's my party!!

it's my birthday!!!

hahaha..happy birthday to me!
guess what?
i'm sick!
ergh..sabaq..sabaq..

eniwei,
thnx to those who remember.
aku sangat terharu!!!!
on my birthday eve, i was so damn tired, took some panadols and piriton, then dozed off straight away. i planned to wait till midnite, but...zzzzzzzz...
then i was awakened by an sms.. =)
hehe..thanks everyone!
thanks sekin for being the 1st..
and suma2 la.. xmaw list down lagi coz da list tak habeh lagi..haha! perasan gilaa..
thanks for calling me, and singing to me and wishing me birthdays and calling me 'tua'!

so far, this is what i've got for my birthday:
- a flu and a cold :(
- a bag and a jacket from my sis
- a tudung from my family
- pocket money..haha

and a few other things, i think..
u wanna add some more, guys???
;)

and the most precious of all,
all da thoughts from u!
mwah!!
thanks!!!

p/s: yeah i'm 19. so what?!!!!

new year!

New year’s hopes and dreams.

1.To be a better person in every way.
2.To study harder so that at the end of each sem, i won’t have to say things like “takotnya tunggu result!!” or “susahnya exam!!” or “mati la aku bila kuaq result nnt”.. (haha..this one macam susah ja nak capai..tapi, not impossible, kn?)
3.Really really hope i can continue my studies in utp, amiin..
4.Hope i can go back to a happy and supportive family all the time.
5.Hope i can stay close to my friends, hope there will not be any crisis, please oh please.
6.Hope to have no enemies in utp, please oh please. Life would be hell if i do.
7.Hope to wear baju kurung more often??...gurls?? =)
8.Hope there will be less drama and fuss in my life next year.. please oh please oh please.
9.Hope to forget everything bad that happened last year.
10.Hope to be stronger spiritually and physically..haha
11.Hope to be taller,i doubt.
12.Hope to be a much much much better cook!!
13.Hope to fit in an XS-sized Giordano tshirt (just a dare from a guy in class..i doubt i would fulfill it..haha)


apa lagi ek.. tah..aku pun tataw sangat.. as time passes by, maybe things will start to come to me. hee~

amira nabilla bt norahmad shah. =)

Belle..
I mish u soooo much!
I mish talking to you everyday..
I mish seeing you everyday..
I mish waiting for you when you get ready every morning..
Erm..wait..i sound like a psycho..
Ok2..i’ll rephrase..
Meow, rndu la nk mkn tgther2..
Rndu la nk wt our weekly activity...dat is...mengangkut bakul2 ke tngkat 1! (don’t make me mention it)
Rndu nk gelak2 cm nk mati kt bilik..n everywhere too, actually..


Rndu la time kita p lumut dulu, ingat x????
Our so-called road trip time bulan posa..haha..brilliant..
U were so happy time tu..napa ek??
Sebab jejaka2 tldm kah??
Oh yea! It’s your bday!!
All the way tu u kol suma org sbb dapat kol free..haha
Seb bek u tahan i daripada bukak posa time tu!
I sgt penat! huhu



Rndu time kita p makan ciken cop kt v3!
I know how much you love that ciken cop..



Rndu time kita jalan2 time mlm2 kt dpn v2..tp last2 lari coz nmpk anjing..huhu

This is currently my phone’s wallpaper..


U ingat tak time kita dah xdak keta tu, yg kita usung lappy-top**** masing2 pi irc malam tu time study week tu??
I know how much you hated going to irc dulu..
Tapi i heret jugak coz knonnya nak daftar course for next sem..
But in the end this is what we ended up doing..

Especially you la..
Haha..mmg expected dah..


After some time, kita berjaya duduk kat meja kat irc tu and actually study!

Erm..study la sangat, kan..


And ingat x time kita pi tgk estranged malam tu??
Sangat bes!
Kiri kanan kita ada org couple..dok bermesra-mesra..
Sangat menyampah!
Tapi kita jugak duduk tengah2, berdua-duaan..
And you even think people will start saying that we are les..haha..hmpeh
Pastu kita tunggu estranged keluar dari ch..
Tp diorang x kuar jugak..
Since it was very late, we started walking back tu v2..
Then, naseb baek i nk terkucil..ehem
Kita patah balik ke ch..
And this is what we got!

Yay!!

And not to mention the numerous songs you gave me.
Love them all!!


I had a lot of fun with you..
mish u mish u mish u!
You are my besfren for 3 years now!
You are my image consultant since forever!
You are my devil all the time! (and angel too..sometimes ja la)
;)
You are the one i turn to for so many approvals, other than my parents la..
Meow2, thnx for everything..
Hope we can be together in da same room for the next coming years..
Coz u know la kan..
Nobody can ever live in our room.
It’s very organized and coordinated and well-arranged and so damn neat.
Kan gurls???
We don’t want anyone to interrupt that, do we?
;)
Mish u, mwah mwah!

aktiviti hari ini..

Aktiviti hari ini:
Memilih baju pengantin.

Abang aku nak p jumpak tunang dia kat pendang..nak pilih baju pengantin together2..
Pastu mak ckp,
“ct tamaw ikut?”
“erm...”
“haa..ct ikut la abg p pendang”
“erm..ok gak. Dgn syarat, ct drive!”
“haa..baguih la..sebab, kalau lelaki dan perempuan bersendirian, we know who the third person, kn?”
“yala..yala..ct p”

So that’s the beginning of the story.
Perancangannya, nak bertolak sesudah subuh..biasa la tu bagi family aku.. kalau nak bertolak ke mana2 yang melibatkan tol (means agak jauh la tu), kena bertolak sesudah subuh ala2 dinihari..
Nak dekat pukul 7.30 pagi, aku dah ready. Siap nak pakai tudung dah.
Tapi abang aku baru nak terkial-kial p mandi..ish..geram2..dah la aku ngantuk.
Tapi tak pa..
By 8.20am, kami bertolak dari rumah.
All the way, aku drive sambil melalak dalam kereta. Abang aku dengaq ja la.
Then time lagu mocca- secret admirer (thnx again to belle..haha), aku nyanyi ja la.. abang aku suka rupanya. Dia ulang lagu tu sampai aku agak boring la..pastu dia suruh transfer lagu tu kat dia..tah hapa2 tah abg aku tuh.
After almost 2 hours, kitorang sampai la kat pendang.
Rumah bakal kakak ipar aku tu, kak liza terletak di tengah2 sawah padi.
So sebelum sampai tu, aku tukaq driver ngan abg aku la.. nk suh aku drive?? Wt terjun dalam bendang ja.
Masuk2 ja jalan nak p rumah kak liza tu, kami dua orang jadi perak..erm..batak..jakun.. sebab tengok sawah padi yang sangat cantik and hijau and permai.

aku bukanlah jurugambar professional macam donny, sekin, adib bla3..
aku amek guna fon kamera ja..do harap maklum la quality dia kan..



Oh, i love it!
The scenery was fantastic, perfect, marvellous.
Dengan angin berdesir..
Padi melamai-lambai..
Aku jatuh cinta dengan sawah padi.
PIC
Ala..aku tau la aku tak reti wat ayat jiwang.ish
Walaupun dah hampir 19 tahun aku kat kedah, tapi aku tak pernah jejak kaki dalam sawah.
Well..you know la kan.. kulim kan metropolitan-la-sangat.
=)
So..
Kitorang sampai la rumah kak liza.
Ibu serta abangnya keluar menyambut kami.
Abang dia duduk depan abang aku, dok sembang2 la.
Aku tengok la abang aku, sebab dah tak tau nak buat apa, kn..
Guess what i saw?
Diorang dok sembang, but his bro was looking straight at me.
I bet he was checking me out!
Hahaha..ayat jijix nak mampueh.
Pastu dia tanya kat abang aku,
“adik tu dok buat apa skarang ni”
Abang aku jawab,
“blajaq lagi..kat utp”
Pastu laki tu cakap,
“ooo..yaka? ingatkan dah kerja dah”
Abang aku jawab,
“dak aiiihhh..kami adik-beradik memang muka tua”
WHADT??!!!!
What kind of answer is that?!!
Ish! Jatuh air muka aku.
Memandangkan saham aku dah jatuh, i paid less attention to him and more to the cat yang dok sondoi and tonggek2 kat aku.
That tabby cat is soooooo cute! Ekoq kembang! Aku pun sapu2 la dia dengan penuh kasih sayang dan kemanjaan..erm..apakah?? saya sangat gembira pada ketika itu!
That 15 minutes of fun gave me almost 5 hours of sneezing.
Oh, God.
Oh meow2..
I love you but i can’t touch you..
Sorry la..

Then we proceed..
Ke kedai2 pengantin.
Aku dah get ready dengan earphone dah..kot la boring..
Pastu terdengaq la suara2 sumbang,
Siti : abg! Amek la baju pink tu!
k.liza : abg! Yang tu cantik x?
Hehehe..mesti orang kedai tu konfius yang mana satu nak kawin dengan abang. Semua panggil dia ‘abang’..
Ya la..bukan senang nak amek abang aku!
Huh!!
Memandangkan i was such a third wheel, (i’m sure abg’s fiancee is cursing me like hell for tagging along..lol..), aku pun blah la p kedai magazine kat sebelah kedai pengantin tu..
As i was browsing through the magazines, one caption caught my eyes:

“BREAK? Apa nak buat?”
I grabbed it and paid quickly.
I know that it’s kinda cliche, to be reading something like this out from the magazine.
But who cares, right?
Judge me if you want. That’s the least thing that i care nowadays.
Sementara boring tunggu fitting session, aku pun baca la majalah remaja yang dah bertahun-tahun aku tak beli neh.
Here’s what the article says about what to do after breaking up:

1.Banyakkan berdoa dan bersabar
Check!

2.Makan coklat
Check!
Have you seen me lately?!!
Dah bulat cam roda PEM kott..haha

3.Luahkan kepada kawan rapat
Check!
Thanks, my dearests. Belle, sekin, jah, mimi, farah, donny. You come into my life when i needed you the most..mwah!!

4.Berhibur
Check!
Hahaha..more than ‘berhibur’ dah kot. Dah pi main bowling dengan you guys, shopping lagi, pi irc together2 lagi, movie night kat bilik aku lagi, slumber party kat bilik aku jugak..haha..

5.Tidur
Check!
Oh..no need to mention this tip. I do this more than the time required!

sekiiiiinnnnnnnnn

Sekin,
Oh, aku dh suka taip ‘sekin’..hehe
Wey..
aku rndu la kt hg..huhu..
Rndu time 1st time jln p kls tghther..ingt x??
Aku takot kot kat hg dulu..huhu
Pastu rndu time kita p kol lab..n dok ushar2 pink..hehe
Rndu time dlm kls..mst ddk sblah hg..
kalu aku ngntok, mst hg ketok2 aku..ceh
Paling bes time kita present drama!

Hahahahaha..lwk la weyy..
Tdung senget brapa degree???

tringat time kita cemas tme buat eksperimen fizik yg slalu x jadi! argh!

(sila abaikan makhluk berambut kerinting di belakang)

sungguhpun nnt hg dh ada kwn baru utk study sma2,

diharap, hg jgn la lupakan aku..huhu

rndu kamu!!
hope to see u soon!!!

~wasiat la sgt~

today..
mommy said something to me..
"don't try to assume responsibilities before your time"

hmm...
i've thought about it for quite a long time now..
somehow, everything that your parents say will turn out to be true..somehow..
it's true, huh?
one of my responsibilities now is to study..just to study..
so why do i have to go and find other irrelevant things to do?
like..trying to think of other peoples' hearts rather than yours..and only yours..
i don't know..
other people have different opinions, right?

but for me now..
i wanna study hard this time..really hard..
i don't have that kind of distraction anymore.
maybe somehow it's a blessing for me.
so kawan2..
kalau korang nampak aku dok lepak2 kat makcik sayang tu for more than 45 minutes for just 1 meal, feel free untuk ketuk kepala aku and chase me up to my room.
=)
kalau korang nampak aku ala2 dah ngantok time daam lecture tu, erm..tak payah la nak baling apa2 kat aku..jentik telinga aku dh la..kot2 la aku segar bugar balik..
kalau korang nampak aku dok berangan pulak time lecture, hah, baling la apa2 yg hampa nak baling. tp berpada2 la wey..
apa lg ek wasiat untuk korang..
ntah..
setakat ni tu ja kot..
keep on supporting me..
insan2 yang dah banyak tolong aku kat utp..in studies, life, girls' stuff..hahaha..
i miss u sooo much!


u know who u are..