stupidos

got so many things to do.
but so little time.

tonight, belle's having tutorial.
she's leaving me all alone.
:(

plan for tonight:

1. get it over with our laundry.
got down to first floor just now, went to the washing room, soooooo many unwashed clothes. considered myself lucky coz nobody's using the washing machine. excited at first, then started to feel curious. it's impossible. i've been waiting for 1 week and this machine had never been unused before. tried the coin slot for a few times. huh. no wonder. the machine is not functioning. stupidos.

2. get it over with chemistry tutorial 2.
got back from class just now, so semangat to start revising chemistry. you know, the test is next week, okei???? huh. so. 4.15pm. the stuff on my bed: blackman textbook, chapter 2 lecture notes, chem tutorial. started on the first question. check. second question, alaa..kena revise dulu.. flipped thru the lecture notes. 5 minutes.. 10 minutes.. the next thing i knew, it was 6.30pm. i dozed off. not so surprising. i can never study on thos bed. stupidos.

3. get it over with physics tutorial 2
haven't started anything yet. relax..the class is on friday, right?? go on. procrastinate. the next thing you know, it's 11.30 pm on a thursday night and you're still trying to find the questions. stupidos.

4. prepare physically and mentally for tomorrow.
OTK. tomorrow i've got e.maths, chemistry, physics, english, icis, english tutorial. classes from 8am to 7pm. OTK. what do i study tonight?? do i have enough time?? stupidos.

see..
it's already 8.15 pm and here i am wasting my time.
haish!

nak balik rumah!!
nak balik kulim!!
maaaaaaakkk!!
abaaaaaahhhh!!
chaaaaaq!!!
bubbles!
miss you so damn much.
waaaaa!~
:(

mimpi ngeri yang jijix.

orang cakap,
friday the 13th tu bawak bad luck.
tapi of course la, semua tu kurafat kan?
kan?!!!

tadi aku bangun tidoq.. tak la sesudah subuh sangat..
bukak mata ja, terus cerita kat belle pasal mimpi ngeri semalam.

pastu time lunch, belle cerita la dia baca kat blog mana taktaw, pasal friday the 13th ni la.
dia baca, ada pantang larang.
1. takleh pecahkan cermin. check.
2. takleh nampak or terserempak dengan kucin hitam. kalau tak, akan dapat bad luck. hmm..


hurm..on the way nak p dinner last night, memang ada kucin hitam lalu depan aku pun.
pastu belle cakap,
"haa..sebab tu la u mimpi camtu semalam!"

taw tak aku mimpi apa semalam?

aku mimpi..
aku dalam kereta dengan sorang lelaki yang ala2 blur dan innocent.
menurut mimpi tersebut, kami tengah celebrate our anniversary or something but that day should be special and romantic la to both of us.
lelaki tu bagi hadiah kat aku.
2 ekoq rabbit putih yang disembur dengan WD-40. taw tak apa benda tu?
ala..spray yang kita semboq kat pintu kalau dia dok krioookkk kriiuukk tu..
argh..tak kisah la..
pastu..aku tak ingat la ayat lelaki tu yang exact kat aku.
tapi maksud dia either ni:

"i'm gonna make you love me today"

atau yang ni :

"i'm gonna make you my wife today"

something like that la.

masalahnya..
kalau laki tu hensem nak mampueh takpa la jugak.
hampa taw tak sapa laki dalam mimpi ngeri aku tu?


JOHN HAFIZ!!!!


aku benci hampa semua.
argh!

:)

12.15pm

kak ana was going on about heat loss or something.
me. yawning away.
tried to look focused but God knows where i was.
scribbled a few words on the paper to look busy.
oh what the hell.
nobody's looking.
put on the ear plug.
started to listen to an acoustic.
smiled to myself.
looked at the watch.

OMG.

it's the last day to pay the summon!
arrghhhh!
lupa laaa!


1.30 pm

rushed to the atm.
withdrew 100.
should be enough to last for the week.
plus the summon.
haishh..


1.45 pm

having lunch with them.
still thinking,
"how do i pay??"
"aren't there any discount or anything?"
haishhh...
takkan tak leh kurang sket kot, pakcik..
iskkk..kedekut..

then they asked about it.

them : eh, saman tu nak bayar brape ek??
me : ishh..takyah laa..segan ngat aih..
them : ngade la kau.. cepat la brape?
me : (berlari-lari anak dengan gedix) tak yah laaaa
them : ngade la kau! (ligan2, and sumbat2 dwet seringgit seringgit dalam purse aku)

haisshhh..
hampa nehh...
kalau ya pon, susun la dwet tu comey2...

tima kasih ekk..
aku sangat terharu ada kawan macam hampa suma.
saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayaaaaang hampa!

mwah2!

omg!

dah nak dekat kul 3!
nak p siap!
nk p bayaq saman!
haisshhhhh.

perkara enam belas jugak!

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tag dari belle!

pertama
seorang yang agak pemalu dan segan. haha.ada ka orang mengaku dia pemalu? ntoh ler..

kedua
dulu time darjah 6, pernah mengidam nak minum dalam botol susu. amazingly, my sis pon layan and beli la sebijik botol susu kaler pink yang siap ada handle lagi! dapat2 ja, terus aku bancuh milo, then minum sambil tidoq. serius rasa cam nak muntah. lepas tu, botol tu aku tak sentuh dah. dah hilang gian kot.

ketiga
first time pengsan pagi tadi. hahaha..experience yang agak dramatis.

keempat
zaman sekolah rendah dulu, aku adalah budak yang gemok, hitam dan selekeh. serius, tudung senget, makan laksa pastu kuah semua tertumpah atas kain, pastu masuk kelas camtu ja. macam.....sangat selekeh la! abang ngan kakak aku panggil aku black fat smelly squuirrel dulu. that explains this blog's name. :)

kelima
tataw la kenapa, tapi memang minat kaler pink. just because of the colour yang attractive, bukan sebab aku gedix or anything, okei?? dalam almari pon penuh dengan barang2 pink, kunci itu ini, buku itu ini. tapi tak semua la. tamaw la jadi pinky girl. tak cool la. hahaha

keenam
dah lali bila lelaki cakap, "muka awak macam mak saya la" or "serius muka awak macam maksu saya". and the latest one, mimi cakap, "muka kakak kau nampak lagi muda compared dengan kau..kau nampak...erm.......matured!". blah la mimi..huh..so, buat orang yang berkenaan, jangan nak mengada-ngada nak ziharkan aku dengan sapa2..haishh

ketujuh
cita-cita dan impian sebenar: nak jadi cashier supermarket ja. sebab suka dengaq bunyi "TING!" time cash register tu terbukak. pernah pi interview (ada interview plak tu) dekat stesen minyak shell semata-mata nak jadi cashier, and it turned out to be a post for tukang isi minyak bersama-sama dengan bangla2 di kulim. kena reject pulak tu. hena sangat ka aku? haishh

kelapan
dah lama teringin nak pi playground dengan kawan2 or kekaseh hati tapi tak pernah kesampaian. time aku kecik2 dulu, kakak dengan abang aku semua dah besaq2 and depa memang takkan layan kalau aku nak pi playground. so tak pernah ingat any experiences of going to playgrounds time kecik2 dulu. sedih kan kisah hidup aku?

kesembilan
sangat2 self-conscious. selalu fikir yang ada benda tak kena dengan aku. agak paranoid la bila orang tengok aku lama2.macam ada something wrong somewhere ja. macam la aku tak pakai baju..haishh

kesepuluh
sangat sangat suka kucin! tapi allergic la pulak kan.. kalau baru pegang kucin tak sampai 5 minit, pastu mesti terus bersin2, gatai hidung, gatai mata, gatai muka, gatai segala-galanya la. haishh..

kesebelas
sangat suka makan makanan orang tua. ni mak aku yang cakap, bukan aku. suka makan laksam, mi kari, pulut dakap (taw x?), pulut seri muka..ntah!and sangat suka benda2 pedas and time makan kat sini, mesti mintak cabai melaka dari pinggan kawan2..heheh..pasni jangan tanya aku apa itu cabai..isk

kedua belas
time kecik2 dulu, rambut aku kerinting macam maggi and spring. sampai boleh masukkan jari taw..serius. sampai orang ingat aku ni anak angkat coz rambut tak sama dengan siblings yang laen. hampeh.depa tu semua buat rebonding lah!

ketiga belas
aku nampak ja macam perempuan, tapi memang tak tahan pakai heels. macam satu cabaran gila, muscle pain abeh semua. haisshh

keempat belas
aku agak senang minat lelaki berdasarkan paras rupa yang kacak. tapi jangan risau! bukan untuk dijadikan kekaseh hati la. contoh: aku rasa suara penyanyi the times tu amat la hensem dan mengasyikkan dan sexy dan sangat menggoda. tapi bila aku tengok videoclip dia, i'd rather pretend that i've never seen his face before. :s

kelima belas
kalau aku minat certain lagu, aku akan ulang lagu tu beribu-ribu kali tanpa menghiraukan orang sekeliling. ni belle yang cakap coz dia selalu jadi mangsa..hehehe..thanks meow2

keenam belas
for the time being, aku sangat happy coz still ada family yang recently aku amat rindu, dikelilingi oleh kawan2 yang memang gila and mereka2 yang memang aku sayang gila. mwah to all!

aku nak tag.....ermmmmmm

1. sekin
2. chaq!!
3. emyllia
4. naquib
5. irfan
6. ae

mengantok

mengantok la sejak akhir2 neh..
dalam kelas pon macam mengantok ja..
tadi tutorial chemistry.
hampa sungguh.
almost 30 students kot, tak ingat la..
tapi only 2 girls!
aku dengan farah..
yang laen2 suma lelaki.
dengan tutornya sekali.
dulu time sekolah, lelaki punya la extinct. sikit gila.
tapi sekarang ni, merata-rata.
where do these creatures come from??!!!
haishhh..

ok..
aku amatlah mengantok..
satgi ada kelas chemy plak.
pukul 3..waktu2 ngantok tuh..
sekarang pukul 1.45pm.
sempat ka nak tidoq ek?
haishhh..

logik tak dektop background aku?

menggoda aku nak tidoq ja..
memberangsangkan btoy..
:)
ni anak kucin mengada-ngada kakak aku.
nama dia bubbles.
bubbles ni mengada-ngada.
last time i checked, dia minum susu fernleaf.
sekarang tataw la pulak kan..
aku pon minum susu besa ja time kecik2..tak la berjenama macam dia..
haisshh..
bubbles memang comey.
tapi bubbles telah membuat dajal kepadaku.

aritu..
bubbles mai melawat aku kat sini.
aku sangat2 la happy tengok dia.
although i know that i'll risk a few 5 hours of sneezing, tapi aku still peluk2 and kish2 dia.
akak aku cita, time on the way ke utp, bubbles had been such a good gurl.
dia duduk diam ja..
then meow meow meow all the way.
nak suruh dia poo poo pun dia tamaw.
ok fine.
so kami pun bertolak la ke teluk batik pulak.
mind you, we are in the car.
aku ngan belle kat seat belakang.
dok maen2 dengan anak kucin neh la.
bubles lompat atas aku.
then dia duduk la termenung kat tingkap keta tu.
aku pun dok sembang2 la dengan bubbles.
this is my exact words,

"bubbles tengok apa tu?? nampak apa kat luaq?

dia tak jawab pon aku tanya.
tiba2 ja aku rasa pangkuanku hangat..panas..basah..


dia kencin atas aku!!
haishhh..

being girls, (or bimbos, maybe?) aku dengan belle dah menjerit sekuat hati dalam keta.
kakak aku dah melelong dah drive.
yalaa..sapa tak panik kalau tiba2 menjerit, kan?

arghh...basah baju baru aku!
geli geli geli!

grrr...bad kitty!!!

tu baru 5 minit duduk dalam keta dengan dia.
pastu, all the way ke teluk batik, bubbles terus pengsan.
dia menyorok kat bawah driver's seat.
senyap ja dia.
tidoq kot.
ka rasa bersalah tak taw.
nampak ekoq dia ja dok terjuntai-juntai.
huh..tau pon takot.
or maybe dia terkejut coz takdak sapa pernah jerit sekuat hati time dia kencin, kan..
naseb kau la..

time nak balik tu, aku pegang la dia buat kali terakhir.
dia mengelupoq (sapa2 tak paham?) ja..
hampehh..



tapi bubbles tetap comey.
mwah2!

p/s:

rasa macam nak balik rumah la.
tiba2 ja homesick
:(


eek!
dah pukul 2.10pm!
aku nak pi tidoq!

K.R.P. = crap?

happy belated birthday, awak..


dah lama saya nak post pasal awak..
tapi macam tak sesuai ja..
saya tak tahu nak guna bahasa apa..
awak?
saya?
kau?
hmm..biaq laa..
tapi sekarang rasanya masa yang paling sesuai.

apa-apa pun..selamat hari jadi..
awak ingat tak..dulu awak cakap..
sapa pun tak ingat birthday awak..
even mak awak..
awak tipu la..
time birthday awak yang ke-17, satu dewan selera nyanyi lagu birthday kat awak..
bes betul..

awak selalu buat saya tak keruan tau..
kadang-kadang saya nampak macam orang gila..
tapi sekarang saya dah siuman dah..
:)

tapi kan.. masa balik rumah hari tu..
saya nampak ada robot warna pink atas meja saya..
ish..ada ka bagi robot untuk birthday saya?
awak suruh saya pasang sendiri pulak tu..
ish..awak ni pelik la..
sebelah robot tu ada keychain kucing warna kuning.
adoi..comel sangat la keychain tu..
tak sampai hati nak buang..
awak tak kisah kan kalau saya simpan?
janji, saya simpan ja.
lepas tu, saya nampak mak susun bantal love warna pink atas katil saya.
saya dah lupa pasal bantal tu..
nasib baik dia empuk dan sangat bes untuk dipeluk, so biar ja la dia kat atas katil tu..
walaupun tiap-tiap pagi, mesti bantal tu jatuh bawah katil..
maybe now, that's where it belongs kot..
:)

lepas tu..
hari tu saya selak-selak notebook saya yang dulu..
saya nampak tulisan kecik2 macam cacing..
terus saya senyum..haha..
awak ni teruk la..tau la nak jadi doktor pon..
:)

lepas tu..
saya browse folder2 lagu dalam komputer..
ada satu folder ni, ada macam2 lagu..
once - dealova
acha & irwansyah - my heart
dewa - larut
slank - ku tak bisa
brainstewz - twinkle
bau - warkah
meet uncle hussein - pari-pari bawah angin
cromok - another you
dulu saya tak boleh dengar lagu2 ni..
tapi sekarang saya dah boleh nyanyi tanpa rasa apa2.
saya sangat suka!
:)

banyak lagi..
tapi saya dah berazam.
that's it.
this is just a final reminiscence.
like you said, let this be our little experience that makes us wiser.
peace now?
i promise i won't think about this again.
coz i know that someone in this room will surely kick me if i do.
:)

from now on i'm gonna concentrate on things and people that really matter to me. that's it.
maybe i look pathetic or sad by writing these things.
maybe i look cliche.
but this is something that i have to do a long long time ago.
let go.
this is really the end of something that wasn't supposed to be and the start of a new experience.
i promise.
my words sound cliche, right?
:)

and i know that i risk something by writing all this.
i know that someone might feel very bad and might hate me after reading it.
just to let you know, this means a lot to me and i am so forgetting all of this from now on.
i'm just so excited in what i might discover tomorrow and my days after this.
tapi awak jangan risau.
ni semua cerita lama.
i promise this is not a rebound.
it's a cute little chapter..ok??
and i just can't wait for tomorrow to come.




p/s:
to those yang faham ja la.. kalau tak faham, tak payah faham laaaaa..

tag tag tag!

tag from wawa!
ermm...dunno if i know much..
tapi tak kisah la..
sooo excited coz dapat tag
:)

1. What is the relationship of you and him/her?

-ermm...schoolmate??


2. Your impressions towards him/her.

-macam mysterious, macam segan la nak cakap dengan dia coz rasa intimidated. tataw la kenapa

3. The most memorable things he/she had done for you.

-pinjam buku p/s i love you! yep2! now i remember.. tapi tak habis baca pon coz time tu dah nak spm..haishh

5. If he/she become your lover, you will..

-ermm... maybe i'm not into that kind of relationship...yet?

6. If he/she become your enemy, you will...

-ermm...tamaw la jadi enemy kan.. tapi kalau jadi jugak, bukannya nampak tiap2 hari pon kan? eheh..sori..


7. If he/she become your lover, he/she has to improve on his/her

-alaaaaaaaa....tamaw jawab!

8. If he/she become your enemy, the reason is...

-haaiishhh...sebab curi ex-bf! lol..maen-maen saja

9. The most desirable thing to do on him/her is

-rapat sket dengan dia kot.. coz dia nampak macam friendly and approachable tapi aku ja macam pemalu..eh..memang pemalu laa


10. The overall impression of him/her is...

- macam bengis tapi macam friendly and macam suka senyum. hehehehe.. tapi dia baek saja dengan aku.. takdak cari pasal pon..:)

11. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?

- belle cakap, "orang ingat you budak baek la..(yay!) they think you are the girl next door"..haha!
but honestly, kawan2 aku (you know who you are..jangan nak ngelak) cakap, time first time depa nampak aku, their first impression is "skemanya budak nehh".. i get that a lot..haishh

12. The character of you for yourself is?

- segan kott.. dulu nak cakap dengan pompuan pon takot..tataw la takot apa.. macam senang rasa intimidated kott..


13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?

- looks can be deceiving.

14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is?

- alamak..ramai kott..tamaw jawab la. ehem


15. For the people who likes you, say something to them

- mwah2!


16. 8 people to tag:

1. mireya
2. sekin
3. jah
4. donny
5. hiqmah
6. irfan
7. ainnudin
8. fue



17. who is no. 2 having a relationship with?
- hahahahahhaha..sapa lagi???? cbt? or si gay?? or........rumet bla bla bla??

18. Is no. 3 a male or a female?
- wanita berusia 19 tahun

19. If no. 7 and no. 8 were together, would it be a good thing?
- hahahaha.. sori fue, but i don't think so...lol

20. How about no. 5 and 6?
- they dunno each other. but it will be sangat sweeeeeeet!~

21. What is no. 1 studying about?
- mechi! bangga sangat ngan mesin dia tuh..haishhhh

22. Is no. 4 single?
- ahahahahaha..ntoh ler kat budak neh.. banyak misteri budak neh.. nampak macam ganas but she surprised me in many ways.. medicure pedicure? facial?? and latest, ramas????? haishhh

23. Say something about no. 2.
- semboq semboq semboq
:)


yay!
dah abeh dah!
tah hapa2 tah..