die die die

I'm gonna be found sprawled lifelessly on the floor tomorrow morning if these panick attacks don't stop right this instant.

Burden

If students (well, some of us) worry about their exam results, what about other people? I mean, adults, grown-ups? I can only imagine a few in this shallow, secluded mind of mine.

- A guy is worried that she's knocked up a girl.
- Or maybe a working guy is worried because he's spent all his paycheck for that new stereo and has no stash left for gas for the whole month.
- Or an 80-year-old worries about his worsening health condition and how he's gonna break the news to his children or something

I don't know. I'm not very good at remembering things but usually when I do, all my memories are filled with worries. Like that time in high school when I wake up a few mornings feeling worried about the presentation that I had to perform later that day. And that time when I was worried like hell when I was about to get my exam results (like, right now!). I guess that's why I'm a little bit paranoid. I worry about things that might or might not happen. I worry about satisfying everyone. I worry about what other people would feel if I do this or that. I worry that people would call me an "emotional freak" (well I'm not really worried about that though). Oh well. I just need to know what other people worry about. I want to feel better. I want to know that other people have other bigger problems to worry about compared to me. I want to know that it is certainly not the end of the world for me. So I gotta stop worrying about what people would feel when they read my blog (well, at least you are reading now, I've always thought that no one reads this blog anymore, thank god). Well whatever.



P/S:

Don't trust everything your friend tells you, like, EVERYTHING. Like what happened around two years back. Why'd you have to go and trust him? OMFG.

Mindless

A paranoid insecured little freak!

U'huh u'huh!

Great job, well done.

So here's the thing. There's this frail old lady with a final stage of cancer who went to the doctor for her check-ups. She did not know her conditions yet, because her children are trying to let her know slowly, to avoid any heart attacks despite her other serious health conditions. So when she saw the doctor, she was greeted with,

"Makcik, makcik ada kanser. Kanser makcik ni ganas. Dah merebak kat semua organ."

What the hell, man? She is certainly not ready for such news. You have been her doctor for what, one year now? In just one year, you could see that she is getting thinner and weaker and this is how you break the news? Talk about being a professional. So yeah, it is the hospital's policy to let the patients know about their situations and conditions. But come on, you cannot just drop a bombshell like that! She is 77 years old, for god's sake. You have to be sensitive when it comes to older people. When they get older, they act more like children. Come on. This is common sense. So now she is too down and depressed to even eat anything, let alone take her insulin shots. Being senile, let's just pray hard that she forgets about this by tomorrow. Way to go, doc.