Tuesday, June 11, 2013


I couldn't sleep last night. I just laid there tossing and turning, imagining this and that, until it was 3 am and I imagined something horrifying with long hair and dripping blood was on my table by the open windows and curtains. Okay by that time, I closed my eyes tight and started counting sheep. I think I dozed off around 4 am. I don't know why. I woke up early in the morning but continued sleeping, my energy is not totally replenished yet. I snoozed and snoozed and entered different kinds of dreams but with the same characters; my mom and dad and sisters and brother. After almost twelve hours of waking up, of course I remember nothing from the dream. But it was all the same plot, more or less the same. I fully woke up at 11.45 am, with a dear longing of going home. I got up and looked at the pillows on the unmade bed, the washed clothes in the basket, the mess on the table, the Final Year Project waiting for any hint of progress. I'm in no cheerful mood today. Went for lunch, got back for class 10 minutes late, went for Plant Process Control Systems lab and did the experiment for almost four hours. At the end of the day, we were exhausted. But when the lab technologist told us that this is the best result that he has ever seen for years, all the exhaustion seems to disappear. I feel like everything paid off. Although we did miss our Zohor prayers and felt really bad (will manage our time better next time). When I was climbing up and down the ladders there, I thought to myself, "Hey you over there. Remember the lab that we visited almost five years ago during our Educamp together? Yeah, well I'm in my final semester now and finally I'm using this lab. The lab where we used to share the same oxygen". Hahaha cheezy much? 

Okay this is a denial state. I should be doing my FYP and here I am blabbering about nothing. No no, not nothing. So what I'm saying is, although my day started quite hambar and lemau today, but at the end of the day, God always give you something good to smile about. Who says life is not fair? Then he is not thankful enough. It is fair that sometimes you face hardships and sometimes you'll be filled with happiness. Oh let's not talk about happiness. Let's just say that comfort is a privilege nowadays. At least there are stars in your night sky instead of bombs. So you woke up on the wrong side of the bed? Boo-hoo. Don't have to go around moping all day. 
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