Sunday, August 30, 2009

Till we meet again

This is a story about me and PEM
So this is the rightful owner. Well..used to be.
Tak ingat pulak ada gambaq ni.

Ni first time cuci PEM. Jakun btoy. Dia basuh pun nak ambik gambaq. Malu pun ada..tapi lantak la..demi PEM.hehehe

And I don't know why. Bukan senang PEM nak parking straight elok-elok. This is one of the few times yang PEM parking not-so-senget. hehehe

And this is the first side parking time baru-baru dapat PEM dulu. Perfect kan?? hahaha..side parking la sangat. Belakang tu kosong kott.

And the people in the car. Hmm..remember where it got us to? Remeber every trip?

And classes too, of course.

Ntah la..malas nak cakap banyak-banyak. Tak tau nak cakap macam mana lagi. I guess some things are not meant to be. I suppose it's true that all good things should come to an end. I guess you really gotta lose something to win something else. Memang la sedih. Tapi nak buat macam mana. Stop brainwash-ing me. I understand. Just take it and I don't want to talk about it anymore, please. Even if I have a new one, it will never be the same. Although it's like a piece of junk, but you don't know how much i cherish it. I will never brag about having PEM. If I ever did, then I'm sorry. I never meant to. I walked away without looking back coz I just couldn't. Sorry. If you ever see it anywhere, do tell me so that I can hunt down the owner and kill him and take it back.

Thanks korang coz belikan benda ni untuk PEM. Sorry la tak sempat nak letak lama-lama. Lepas ni kita letak dalam bilik, ok? The hardest part was to take it off the dashboard today. Sayang korang ketat-ketat.

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Selamat Berpuasa

macam post wajib ja untuk semua orang.

Nak wish selamat berpuasa kepada semua orang jugak.
Beberapa azam typical di bulan puasa ; nak puasa penuh, kalau boleh nak sembahyang terawih tiap-tiap malam sebab last time puasa selalu tinggal terawih pastu ada sorang tu tanya "kenapa tak pi sembahyang terawih?", i realized that i have no answer to that question. Next, kalau boleh nak kurangkan bercakap sebab setiap kali bercakap macam buat lagi banyak dosa ja, and kalau boleh, nak kekalkan macam tu at least sepanjang tahun ni. Nanti orang cakap, "eleh..nak jadi baik time bulan puasa ja..habis ja bulan puasa, perangai macam dulu jugak".
Okei, will try to keep the azam.

Biasa la ni..dah sampai bulan Ramadhan semua orang nak jadi baik. Okei, maybe bukan semua, tapi ramai orang la..typical la tu..kita boleh plan ja..tapi sama ada kita boleh kekalkan azam tu atau tak, that depends on us ja la kan..tatau la nak wish apa lagi..oh, you know..the typical ones..hope to be a better person..

Okei menyampah dengan diri sendiri.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Yes people,

Burung itu telah terbang ke indonesia.
Sila jangan tanya saya dengan lebih lanjut.


Terima kasih.

Saturday, August 15, 2009

emo emo

What goes around memang comes around, kan? Memang karma wujud la, ek?

Manusia memang suka cakap pasal manusia. Memang seronok, kan? Kutuk-kutuk sana sini. Gosip-gosip sana sini. Kalau ada cerita baru tu, memang excited betul nak cerita kat semua orang. Time dah ada cerita baru tu, tak kira la "subject of the matter" tu kawan ka, orang yang kau tak suka ka, asalkan kau dapat sebarkan cerita tu. Kau pernah fikir tak macam mana kalau orang lain yang tengah cakap pasal kau? Orang lain yang sebar cerita pasal kau? Lagi seronok, kalau orang yang sebar cerita pasal kau tu adalah kawan kau. Kawan baik kau sendiri kot. Agak-agak apa kau rasa? Time kita cerita pasal orang, kita tak pernah fikir apa yang orang tu akan rasa, kan? Bukan aku nak tujukan kat any particular person pon..sebab most of us pun buat kerja ni. Aku sendiri pun tak terlepas daripada kerja-kerja ni.

One thing that I would like to emphasize here is that bestfriends do not stab each others' backs. That is so high school, my dear. I can't believe I still have to deal with these things, AGAIN. You know, with what is happening around me this whole week, I finally know who my real friends are. I know who I can depend on the most. I know just the person to talk to even at 5 in the morning. People come and go in your life. Faces change, and you change with them. But you, you are one of those that I will not remember.

I'm so tired of being silent about everything. I have a lot on my mind but I just keep it to myself coz I'm scared that it would hurt people. If it hurts me now, so why doi have to think about them? To hell with them lah.

I hate blogs yang nak emo-emo pun nak cerita dalam blog. Yang nak cerita pasal kesedihan ja dalam blog diorang. I guess that's my fault for being judgemental coz look at me right now. The thing is, do not judge other people's action without understanding them or what they are going through. You are not in their shoes, you don't know how they feel. So just shut up.

Aku dah tak tau camna nak susun ayat dalam post ni. Aku tak tau dah camna nak jaga hati orang yang akan baca. coz aku dah penat la nak jaga hati semua orang. Baik fikir pasal diri sendiri. So aku tulis ja apa aku fikir. As long as I don't mention anyone's name, everyone is safe, right? Swear I won't open up everything to anyone anymore.

Suddenly rasa macam deja vu.
Like everything is happening all over again.
Tak suka lah macam ni.
I am not being defensive.
But I just hate it lah.

Friday, August 14, 2009

I don't know what this is.
Things might be turning around for me, finally.
Or this might be revenge. Or vengeance.
Hope it's not because everything is just so beautiful to be messed up at this point.

Thursday, August 13, 2009


cekodok sekalian,

aku tak sangka korang buat macam tu semalam.
sumpah tak sangka.
aku terkejut gila semalam.
korang cakap pasni akan ada lagi banyak kejutan tapi aku tak sangka langsung korang sanggup buat macam tu.
sebelum ni memang aku selalu gedix-gedix cakap "terharunya! terharu la ngan korang!".
tapi semalam sumpah terharu gila nak mati.
memang mixed feelings gila la semalam.
rasa terharu, terhena, pastu terharu lagi dan lagi.
korang memang suka hena aku, kan?
aku tak pernah dapat surprise macam tu (ayat gila bothic).

apa2 pon, TERIMA KASIH!!!

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

thank you


how bout getting off these antibiotics
how bout stopping eating when I'm full up
how bout them transparent dangling carrots
how bout that ever elusive kudo

thank you india
thank you terror
thank you disillusionment
thank you frailty
thank you consequence
thank you thank you silence

how bout me not blaming you for everything
how bout me enjoying the moment for once
how bout how good it feels to finally forgive you
how bout grieving it all one at a time

thank you india
thank you terror
thank you disillusionment
thank you frailty
thank you consequence
thank you thank you silence

the moment I let go of it was the moment
I got more than I could handle
the moment I jumped off of it
was the moment I touched down

how bout no longer being masochistic
how bout remembering your divinity
how bout unabashedly bawling your eyes out
how bout not equating death with stopping

thank you india
thank you providence
thank you disillusionment
thank you nothingness
thank you clarity
thank you thank you silence

-mood alanis morissette
thank you nothingness.

you. me. them. us.

"You can't possibly satisfy everyone.
Everyone you love."

So they say..

You can never have everything you want in life.
You just can't have it all.
You gotta lose some to gain some.
You gotta sacrifice something in order to keep the other.
You gotta wait for something to come.
You gotta wait for the right time.

Right now is not the right time for me.
I'm sorry.
I've got my reasons.
My hundred reasons.
And they are not excuses.
They are real, solid reasons from me.
I hope you would respect them as much as i would respect yours.
No one understands our situation except us.
No matter how much i explain, they will never understand.
This is between you and me.
Not them.
Never were, never will be.

Monday, August 10, 2009

it's not enough

Alanis Morissette - Hand In My Pocket

I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah
I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby

What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five

I feel drunk but I'm sober
I'm young and I'm underpaid
I'm tired but I'm working, yeah
I care but I'm restless
I'm here but I'm really gone
I'm wrong and I'm sorry baby

What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be quite alright
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is flicking a cigarette

What it all comes down to
Is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving the peace sign

I'm free but I'm focused
I'm green but I'm wise
I'm hard but I'm friendly baby
I'm sad but I'm laughing
I'm brave but I'm chicken shit
I'm sick but I'm pretty baby

What it all comes down to
Is that no one's really got it figured out just yet
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is playing the piano

What it all comes down to my friends
Is that everything's just fine fine fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is hailing a taxi cab...

I'm just happy but I'm just not that satisfied.yet.
Something's wrong somewhere.
Sure thing, you can't satisfy everybody, baby.
Hell, yeah.

This is all for you.
Tell me I'm doing the right thing here.
Tell me I won't regret this.
This is everything you've ever wanted.
And now you get it.

Sunday, August 9, 2009

tick tock tick tock

Got this list from mr ariff dean.

I realised that i don't have that much time anymore to complete the list.

Highlighted things are the only things that i have ever achieved.

1.Started your own blog
2. Slept under the stars
3. Played in a band
4. Visited Hawaii
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to Disneyland
8. Climbed a mountain
9. Held a praying mantis
10. Sang a solo
11. Bungee jumping
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch
15. Adopted a child
16. Had food poisoning
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty
18. Grown your own vegetables
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept on an overnight train
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Hitch hiked
23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill
24. Built a snow fort
25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping
27. Run a Marathon
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. Seen a total eclipse
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset
31. Hit a home run
32. Been on a cruise
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Seen an Amish community
36. Taught yourself a new language
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Seen Michelangelo’s David
41. Sung karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant
44. Visited Africa
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance
47. Had your portrait painted
48. Gone deep sea fishing
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkelling
52. Kissed in the rain
53. Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theater
55. Been in a movie
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies
62. Gone whale watching
63. Got flowers for no reason
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma
65. Gone sky diving
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp
67. Bounced a check
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favourite childhood toy
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten caviar
72. Pieced a quilt
73. Stood in Times Square
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
77. Broken a bone
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book (all in good time, my friend)
81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Read the entire Qur’an
86. Visited the White House
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
88. Had chickenpox
89. Saved someone’s life
90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous
92. Joined a book club
93. Lost a loved one
94. Had a baby
95. Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a law suit
98. Owned a cell phone
99. Been stung by a bee
100. Read an entire book in one day

That's all?


So much on the list.

So little time left.

Gotta forget those little nuisance.

Get away.

Go, go away from me.

Saturday, August 1, 2009

This better be good.
Header image by sabrinaeras @ Flickr