Sweet like chocolate

Food. 
Everything is about food today. I woke up earlier than usual just so I can stop by the nasik lemak stall to buy one. I drove to work while eating nasik lemak on my lap. Now how multitasking is that? I do so because going for breakfast is not fun anymore. Before this, meals at the cafe are the most fun part of the day at work. I get to be with my friends and talk and laugh and listen to them making silly jokes. But now, it's just awkward smiles and uncomfortable silences from different tables. Something happened and I still can't seem to decipher it. So, to avoid anyone from being uncomfortable, I refuse to be seen with them. I'm so sick of people asking what's wrong when even I don't have the answer. So it's better for me to withdraw. So yeah, I'll start this new ritual of driving to work while eating nasik lemak. So far, it's been fun and time-saving. At 11am, my stomach started to growl. I need food. So I escaped to the vending machine, bought an 80cents iced Milo and ate a Gardenia's chocolate-flavoured bread. That ought to replace my lunch. And the result was amazing! I've heard that chocolates can boost your hormones or something and it makes you feel happy. It's true! It's proven! After consuming those chocolate-based food and drink, I was elated. I don't know why. It is certainly not the power of the mind, because it took me quite some time to figure out why I was suddenly so happy. So yeah, belly full, smiling ear to ear, I was happily doing my work. This can be my new ritual as well, since going for lunch is not fun anymore. I might need to copy and paste my statements up there. Then I had mee goreng during tea time, not much of a so-called "tea time". I'm a big fan of mee. Be it mee kari, mee rebus, mee bandung, mee kuah, mee maggi, everything. But I was never a fan of mee goreng. But today's mee goreng was fabulous. I love it. Maybe because I was eating contently and with a very positive mood, I feel everything is positive. Despite the fact that she ignored my "oi" when we met, and the fact that she waited until I left before going at her locker, and not to forget the oh-I-didn't-see-you-there when she is practically inhaling the 0.04% from 4% of carbon dioxide that I've exhaled. We're like, less than 1 metre apart? Honestly, I give up. I  give up in pleasing everyone. It's just utterly impossible. So I'm doomed to have no one to hang out with there, okay fine. Maybe God has other plans for me.Okay I'm not gonna ruin my mood now. The chocolate still has its effect. Till then.