Act like a girl

It's ironic you see. When you get married, you are suddenly very obedient. You need to follow your husband's orders, you need to get your husband's permission to go out of the house. If not, you will be considered "derhaka" and will be very sinful. Do you realize that you have had this responsibilities back when you are your parents' children? Did you really obey everything that your parents said back then? Did you ask for their permission everytime you're going out? This is just to name a few. Well, I know I didn't. So that makes me a not-so-obedient child to my parents. So why should I be a very-obedient wife to my husband? I'm not against marriage or men or anything. It just occurred to me. If I want to be a good or obedient wife, I need to be an extra extra obedient daughter first, right? I'm sure my parents deserve more than anyone else. I don't know. This post was intended to be one of those I-love-my-parents post because I miss them so much, I look at their photos late at night because I miss them and they promised they would come visit me today but cancelled last night with the excuse of I need to study. So I spent the whole morning sleeping, devastated. I was imagining everything perfectly in my mind, all the hugs and kisses. Well, thank you for nothing. This is me studying, thank you very much. It's 1.20pm and I'm still stuck in the room and I haven't seen anyone else. Plus, a phone call from home, reporting the situations at home, makes me want to crawl back under the covers and shut everything down.