unintended

Zee Avi - Someone you used to know

It was helpless anyway
There's nothing much we could do or say
Darling don't you think it's a shame?
that it had to end this way

So here's to say goodbye,
our love is lost, and we cant figure why
maybe it really is about time
that we finally made up our minds

So Darling, here's to you
i hope that when you find someone new
that she would always be true to you
to love and understand you

Soon you'll build new memories
then slowly you'd forget about me
then i would slowly be
a distant memory

*Soon i'll just be
that someone you used to know
But darling you will thank me
for letting you go
time is not for wasting
i hope you'll find your intended
But i'm sorry
that your intended isn't me

it's not an easy thing
to shake off our history
i know that's what you want from me
but they will always stay with me

i admit i made mistakes
but darling with you it's just the same
if we stay there will be more to make
i dont know how much more we can take

Darling, it would be unfair
to stay with something no longer there
its not that i no longer care
i'd feel like a burden you cannot bear

A Good Start

I never wake up in the morning,
crying.
I don't think i can handle it again.
No please, don't.
Once was terrible enough.
I don't think i can go through another one.
Please..
God has been telling you this for so long.
WAKE UP, STUPID!!

sayang mak abah.

typical me

let me tell you something about myself.

i never say that i'm different from other people.

i'm just a typical 19 years old person.

i won't be those who said "i'm different. i'm not typical like those people".

and i'm not the one who will say "i am who i am. no one is like me"

i'm just another God's creation who is just like the others.

so don't expect me to do extraordinary things.

like the others,

sometimes there would surely be ups and downs in life, right?

i'm a human, i make mistakes.

i know i can't make that as an excuse.

but that's the reason. not an excuse.

i'm not like those who are into indie stuff.

i don't want to listen to them just to fit in.

i don't listen to them because i don't know most of them.

i've never been to gigs and stuff.

i only listen to fly fm and hitz fm in my car.

but sometimes i'm just a typical person who enjoys listening to hot fm and era.

don't judge me by which radio i listen to.

i don't have an SLR.

i don't know how to use it.

i can't afford it.

i only take pictures using my phone.

i don't even have a digital camera either.

so does that mean that i'm not in?

i love being with my friends, no doubt.

i love laughing with them, walking to class with them, having lunch together, in the car together, hanging out together.

but sometimes we're just too loud and it's not because we want to attract guys like some people might think.

don't judge me by who my friends are.

in fact, don't judge us ALL if you don't know us.

i love being with him.

i won't say that we'll last forever and all those stuff. God knows how long we'll last but as long as we're together, why not make the best of it, right? i love it when we go out together, watch movies sometimes, shopping, dinner together and sometimes just enjoying the silence. you know, all those typical things people do. i love spending time together.

you see, it's not wrong to be typical, ordinary.

if it's you, then it's you.

as long as you know what you're doing, then do it.

but just don't forget your priorities.

if you hear voices around you, listen to them.

if it is ridiculous, to hell with them.

if you can accept it, accept it.

don't just throw it all away.

open up your mind.

please.

Please stop thinking that people are pushing you away.

you are the one who made those four walls around you.

never ever thought you would start talking about it.

now i'm one of your subjects.

how surprising.

Honestly,

i am grateful of the things that i have around me.

and i am grateful for things that you've done for me.

she told me to never bite the hands that fed me.

i won't.

i made a mistake once and i expect to redo everything again, because i still have the chance.

so why do you have to push me away?

what did i do wrong?

he helped me through it.

they helped me through it.

they couldn't accept it at first, but they did.

so why can't you?

Some say that i'm too nice.

i followed everything people say, agreed and just shut up to anything.

but sometimes, i have things on my mind too.

i'm not planning on being a rebel or anything.

i just want things to be clear.

and this is surely not a part of growing up.

this is a part of me wanting to know..

what went wrong between us?

i want it to stick together.

us.

all of us.

FRESH NEW START

so many things to say.

but just didn’t have the time during the holidays.

too much stress and drama and fun.

so here i am..

back in utp again.

the place that gave me the greatest laugh in my life, so far.

and also caused the greatest tears and fears.

oh well..this is my life.

with the people around me and at home,

i’ll do my best!

that’s my promise to you.

well, at least that’s my promise to myself.

if i am brainless, i’ll get it back again.

haha.

PROGRESS!

first day here, woke up at 8 am. yay! good start!

then surf internet. okay, i’ll work on that later.

next agenda : UNKNOWN. (it is known actually..but..well, let's keep it that way)

:)