7.06 PM

It is the one interview that I wasn't too excited about because the company has no Wiki page. It is the one interview that I was late to. And by late, I mean just a mere ten minutes before the interview started. Usually, I'll arrive one hour prior the designated time. I was late because the stupid Waze showed me a different route to a different place which is entirely at the other side of the place I'm actually heading to. Since I can't rely on technology, which is what I've been doing for the past 23 years of my life, I decided to follow my hunch. Seeing that I don't have enough time especially with the heavy traffic, my head was making up devious plans. I was coming up with all sorts of excuses to why I didn't attend the interview. Even worse, I planned to go and have a breakfast somewhere and go back home two hours later, telling my parents how smooth the interview went. But I got there in time. I could say that God led me there because maybe He has something planned for me. Okay stop being so dramatic. Practically, my sister led me there because I panicked and I realized that I ended up in front of her office so I called her for directions and she led me straight to Ibiden. It is the one interview that actually hired me.

I've been to a few interview myself. Sure it's not some big shot companies but the experience is there. I guess you could bluff them, impress them or say whatever during an interview. You shouldn't hold anything back. You could bluff them if you want, as long as you'll work it out later. You can tell them that you have nothing against travelling, even though your parents wouldn't let you work even a little more than 100km from them. You can bullshit all you want, sell yourself, make yourself look good and valuable. If they like your bullshits, they'll hire you. If they don't, then you'll never see their faces again. So? What's the worst that could happen? Alhamdulillah. I'm glad I got this job because of me, myself. Not because someone helped me or recommended me  or arranged an interview or something. I'm glad I got this offer fair and square.

Although I must say, I feel a bit undeserving of this gift from God. I was ashamed to be so lucky and to be given this opportunity at this time. I have to admit that I wasn't His most humble and pious servant but He blessed me anyway. The one thing that I am really afraid of right now is if this is an istidraj. 

"Rasullulah s. a. w. bersabda :”Apabila kamu melihat bahawa Allah Taala memberikan nikmat kepada hambanya yang selalu membuat maksiat(durhaka),ketahuilah bahawa orang itu telah diistidrajkan oleh Allah SWT.”(Diriwayatkan oleh At-Tabrani, Ahmad dan Al-Baihaqi)

Tetapi, manusia yang durhaka dan sering berbuat maksiat yang terkeliru dengan pemikirannya merasakan bahawa nikmat yang telah datang kepadanya adalah kerana Allah berserta dan kasih dengan perbuatan maksiat mereka. Masih ada juga orang ragu-ragu, kerana kalau kita hendak dapat kebahagian di dunia dan akhirat kita mesti ikut jejak langkah Rasullulah saw dan berpegang teguh pada agama Islam."

Nauzubillah.