Sick Cycle Carousel

Lifehouse - Sick Cycle Carousel

If shame had a face, I think it would kind of look like mine.

If it had a home, would it be in my eyes?

Would you believe me if I said I am tired of this

Well here we go, now one more time,

I tried to climb your steps,

I tried to chase you down,

I tried to see how low I could get down to the ground,

I tried to earn my way,

I tried to change this mind,

You better believe that I tried to beat this.

When will this end, it goes on and on

Over, and over, and over again.

Keep spinning around I know it won't stop,

Till I step down from this for good

I never thought I'd end up here

I never thought I'd be standing where I am

I guess I kind of thought it would be easier than this,

I guess I was wrong

Now one more time,

chorus

This is a sick cycle carousel

This is a sick cycle carousel, yeah

It's weird how you can find a song that is a perfect match to your mood.

Perfect.

Miseryyyyyy

I didn't bring the car because...

` I need to exercise because when I walk more, I would go to the toilet more, and when I go to the toilet more, I would be healthier, and when I'm healthier, I think these headaches and senile problem would go away. Plus, I need to lose some weigh, duh.

` I need to sweat more. To make me more healthy, yeah.

` I've got to stop jumping into every opportunities of going out.

` I need to learn how to grow up and be matured and balance my needs and wants. I need to learn that walking to class is a "need" and turn it into a "wants". And realize that going to KFCs every weekend is a "want" and going to Ipoh for shopping and movies is a "waste-of-time".

Goodbye to...

` Pasar Malam (Nasi Lemak Ayam Berempah yang serius sangat sedap nak mampus. Sob!)

` KFC (Batu Gajah. Yang kat Taman Maju tu pun tak jejak kaki lagi)

` Ipoh (Kenny Rogers! Johnny's! Secret Recipe!)

` Manjung (The cinema that has the best popcorn ever)

` Lumut (Overnights!)

` Teluk Batik (Goodbye to the dreams of going on the banana boat and knowing us, screaming like hell)

Tapi bila dah tak bawak kereta..

` Setiap kali ada kelas kat Poket C, mesti berharap "Kalau la ada kereta" padahal time bawak kereta dulu tak pernah pun drive pi Poket C.

` Susah nak beli tiket kat Medan Gopeng and nak cari transport untuk pi Medan Gopeng. Arghhh

` Segannya la nak mintak tolong banyak-banyak kat orang yang bawak kereta untuk tolong beli tiket bas and itu ini. Bukan ego, ok? Tapi segan. Tapi eventually mintak jugak.

Complain! Complain! Complain! Cuba bersyukur sikit! Hish!

By the way, anyone care to share a cab with me this CNY? RM50 is just too much for a gal..

:(

It's the end of life

Bismillah..

Before my life is officially over in less than 24 hours from now, I would like to say thank you very much to my family for letting me stay at home for the whole two wonderful months. I would totally understand if you decide to kick me out tomorrow. I want to let you know that this two months are the best that I have ever had in my life. It was all about our family and we've never been close since forever. I would cherish every second of it and I would love to come home every month if you would let me. I'm sorry for all the disappointments that I've caused and as usual, I hope I could turn back the time.

Maybe I should email this to my Dad. Hurm.

Today I was like, "Maaaaak.... Maaaaak..." with this sappy, pathetic face and Mom was like, "Haa..ni sindrom nak keluaq result la ni" and I was like, "Maaaaak.... Maaaaak...." with more puppy-eyed face and she was like, "Diam la aih Siti..bising ngat aih" and I was like, "SOB!".

Having a roommate means..

I got it from lots of listssssss here.

These are some of the biggest things you and your roommate will find yourself disagreeing about:

	Bathroom Yaka? Tak pun. Kami tak berebut bilik air pun. Siap mandi bilik air sebelah-sebelah lagi kan? Sambil sembang-sembang. Baling-baling air..err..euw
	Bills What bills? We divide everything! Even the tax and service charge and Neslo Makcik Sayang, everything kot.
	Phone We've got our own cell phones. Mine is always on silent mode and her alarm is very annoying (trademark. Haha) which is a great thing because boleh la bangun kalau dengaq alarm dia bunyi tiap-tiap pagi walaupun kadang-kadang alarm dia tu ada atas meja dia dan dia tak sedaq apa-apa so I have to get up and turn it off. Ok defensive sedikit.
	Food What? The biggest jar of Nutella? Kami kongsi-kongsi kot. Hehe
	Television Kalau ada pun, maybe we'll end up watching our own favourite movies together, Tapi tak tau la. My roommate kadang-kadang RARE sikit. Hehe
	Space Our laundry basket is in the middle of the room, the iron and the ironing board is in the middle too. What else?
	Clothes Clothes on the floor? Noooo.. Clothes everywhere else? Yeahhh!
	Noise You mean, both of us with our headphones on singing along loudly to different tunes. We can survive. But others in the house, I'm not sure.
	Sleeping schedules She's a night owl. She'll sleep at 4am or 5am while I can barely stand until 12am.
	Locking the door We LOVE locking the door!! Walaupun kadang-kadang bila dia sorang-sorang, dia memang akan kunci pintu. God knows what she's doing in there. *wink*
	Personal stuff She has hers stashed away secretly and I have mine. Yaka? And sorry for getting into a cat fight just to read your diary. Well, you read some of my personal stuff! Best still, I emailed you some of them! So much for my "personal" stuff.
	The significant other who is always around You mean, Syarmimi Liyana? Erm..we're ok with it. I mean, her.
	Delivering phone messages If I'm not around, she won't pick up my phone if it is ringing and I won't either. We complete each other, 'aite? :D
	Turning lights off HMMMMM.... She sleeps with the lights on. IF she sleeps first which is very RARE, I would surely turn off the lights. Ya Allah ya Tuhanku, bagi la dia tidoq awai tiap-tiap malam lepas ni. Amiinnnn.

I am 20, going on 21. Lalala~

Ok I'm now *cough* twenty years old *cough*. Two oh.

So here are some list of things that I should do before reaching 20 from Seventeen Magazine.

1.Take a road trip.
We've been planning this since forever. We planned to start off early in the morning and start exploring Perak. (Perak dulu. Pastu jauh sikit, Cameron ka, pastu Genting then maybe KL? Hahaha!) Singing at the top of our lungs and just have fun for a day or two. Well, InsyaAllah. *Wink*

2. Learn to play a musical instrument.
I want to learn how to play a guitar. It's just awfully pathetic to have one and not knowing how to play it. It's like having those big bulging DSLR cameras just because you have the money but not even knowing how to use it. Worst still, you use it to take pictures of yourself. Get a camera phone, would ya?! Ok cool. (Guitar pink guitar pink guitar pink)

This is cute.

Or this one.

Ok this is too..much?

3. Go skinny-dipping!
According to Wiki, "Nude swimming (colloquially called skinny dipping, also spelled skinny-dipping) is swimming naked, i.e. without any swimsuit. Skin(ny) diving is both used as a synonym and for free diving". What?!! I can't even swim! Left alone swimming naked! I need all the life jackets I can have.

Ok no pics included because it's too..erm..explicit?

4. Save $1,000.
According to Moneycentral, $1,000 equals to RM3,398.00009. I'm not sure but Dad keeps my other bank book so it's impossible for me to get hold of the money except if I'm buying a car, or maybe a house, or maybe get married. Hah.

5. Know your grandparents.
I only know my two grandmothers. One of them passed away when I was twelve so now I only have another one left.

Didn't know I have this. Haha

6. Buy a lottery ticket.
Astaghfirullah. Nonsense nonsense.


7. Win an award.
What? For having the most pink stuff? I can't award myself. Other should. Maybe I'll run for MPPUTP and get awarded for my hard work for preparing more parking spaces for the students. (As if layak nak jadi calon untuk MPPUTP. Nak cakap depan kelas pun takut. Ceh)

8. Say "I love you."
Don't say it if you don't mean it. It's sacred.


9. Learn to drive a stick shift.
I AM driving a stick! I mean, I once did. Until the little PEM got sold. I'm not sure if I still remember how to drive a stick though. The last time was when my brother offered to drive his new car and I drove using first gear all through the 200 metres I think and realized that I was driving in a wrong lane. Silly. (Rindu PEM. Really. Sigh)


10. Milk a cow.
What cow? There are lots of buffaloes in front of UTP though. Can I milk them instead?

11. Forgive someone.
Her? And him? And her? And them? Oh what the hell. Just get over it already. They are all teenagers back then. Just grow up and forget about them.

12. Have your fortune told.
I want to! Though I know that I shouldn’t. But it’s just for fun, like reading the horoscopes and being surprised that it is so similar to your real life. I mean, it’s cool.

13. Go to a drive-in.
You mean those drive-in theatres? If there is such thing as drive-in in Ipoh or even in Malaysia, I would totally go. Then maybe we’ll get to see some real-life love scenes acted out in front of us. Haha.

Isn't this cool?

14. Do your own laundry.
10 years ago, I used to get very excited when I had to wash my own clothes as the washing machine broke down. But now, with all the technology, I can’t even remember the last time I did my own laundry. Maybe someday. Someday.

15. Ride a horse.
Err..my Dad won’t allow. But maybe someday I would try and it would turn out to be very fun! Though I repeat, the only big animals around me are those buffoloes outside UTP.

16. Donate your formal dresses.
I’ve got no formal dresses but maybe I can donate my clothes that I can’t wear anymore to the needy.

17. See the ocean.
Does the beaches count as ocean? But it is indeed my favourite place actually. So propose me at the beach! Or ocean, in this case.

18. Waitress at least once.
Smiling and be all pleasent, taking other people’s orders? And if I get lucky, I might need to mop the floor afterwards? Yeah, maybe once. That is if it’s in Kenny Rogers so I would get free muffins!

19. See one thing that is "the world's largest."
Hurm. So I get to brag to other people that I’ve seen this and that? Yeah sure! (Candi Lembah Bujang yang dekat dengan rumah tu pun baru p sekali. Tu pun masa kecik-kecik dulu)

20. Leave the country.
Anywhere, please Abah???? But Indonesia is better. Who knows, there would be serendipity anywhere.

21. Learn how to love your body.
I have to stop complaining about being too short, having not enough hair, being too fat or whatsoever. Just love your body and be thankful that you can use it better than anyone else.

Though your body does not look like this. Sigh.